Friday, July 10, 2009

And just like that....

it's all gone. Well I should stop being melodramatic and just say that my baby has been laid off. I am fighting anguish and heartbreak, but also trying to plan ahead by six months to know where we will land. We have a house, a dog, and a life that is far beyond this job loss, but with no means of secondary income, we could be facing inevitable separation. Not to mention the fact that she is not an American citizen, and I can't marry her to make her stay. I feel even more inadequate because I am the one in the house with the "job of dreams" and not the "job that pays bills". It's not like I can just pick up where she lacks and keep right on going.

We will figure it out, I am sure of it. But in the meantime, she will leave the country and I will mourn and be miserable for however long she is gone. The only good thing to look forward to is my niece in September, but my heart will be in another country. So to those who see me everyday, lo siento. I will not be the happy go lucky girl I usually am, but don't forget I'm in the room....



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The Frames - Falling Slowly

I don't know you but I want you all the more for that.
Words fall through me and always fool me and I can't react.
And games that never amount to more than they're meant will play themselves out...

Take this sinking boat and point it home, we've still got time.

Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice. You've made it now....