With eyes wide open

I let go of my weak core

and fly on stretched wing

Haiku

love is  regrets lost

repose my gloomy scorned soul

I can breathe again. 

The WIRE!!!!!

Ok so I am a bit of a geek. When I get on a streak, I get on a streak. I have spent the last few days completely wrapped up in "The Wire" HBO series. I am like 5 years too late. It is AWESOME. I think I am so wrapped up in all the cursing and drugs and forbidden street slang. Its bad enough that everything they do is in code, but when you are able to figure out what is being said in code, you have probably watched too much. I am trying to get my hands on the other seasons, so I am in a holding pattern for right now. GOD BLESS The Wire!!!

Drum roll please........

I am so excited. I just found out this weekend that I am going to be an AUNT! My brother and his wife are expecting now, and I am so happy for them.

I am also wondering how I will fit into all this. I think about my own aunts and what they did for me, and I wonder what makes someone a good aunt. I know I will be the quirky aunt, who is by no means "normal". I know I will have to spoil him/her with the toys that mom and dad won't buy. I also know I will be the aunt who takes them places and shows them things. But I am also the aunt who lives 2000 miles away from home. So my plan is to be the aunt who creates videos of her life to send once a year on their birthday. I think that is a way to introduce myself. My biggest fear is that I am going to be the "stranger" when I do come home to visit.

And when she/he gets older, I am terrified of the conversation that I will have to have about why Aunt Des is not "married". But I will leave that up to my brother and sister-in-law to decide if they want their child to know. As much as it hurts to say that, I will not discuss anything with my niece/nephew unless they want me to tell them.

Sooooo, I want input. What makes a aunt a good aunt? What are the qualities you love in your favorite aunt/uncle? Leave me a comment and let me know.....

New Glasses!!!

So today I went and picked up my new glasses. I am so excited. I have two new pairs. I know, I know I am a total geek, but you have to admit I look good in them! 

Pair Number 1:

Black and Green frames

Pair Number 2:

Black with rhinestones on them. 

And anti-glare is the best thing EVER!

Life throws your for a loop sometimes...

It is absolutely amazing how life throws you for a loop sometimes. When I look back to where I have been and where I want to go, I am a changed person. My boss (the higher up) thinks that I am a great asset to my job, but occasionally I feel so run down. No one seems to notice, but in this day and age,  I am just glad to have a job still. I wouldn't trade my life for the world, but right now I am on the verge of losing it all, and I know I can't do anything about it. I wish that the Patriot Act had never happened. I know that there is a  reason for everything, but to lose someone you love because the government decides to get choosey over who they want to have in this country is totally unfair. This would never be a problem if I could just get married. But until bigots are done running this country, I guess I will have to settle for a little slice of heaven amidst chaos. My life right now is like wearing headphones in a crowded room. It makes you think, what is the damn purpose?

My ordinary day....

My usual day involves sharks...weird but true

Happy New Year

Me in my "There is no right way to eat a Rhesus" T shirt. I love my animals. 

New Year's Wish

Don't do anything I wouldn't do tonight ladies and gents!

Yeah the world should revolve around me...

This is my theme song for this new year, 2009. Once you listen to it, you will understand. I spend most of my day putting other people first. This year is MY year to make it what I want it to be! I think everyone should make this their theme song....